she may be the face I can’t forget
a trace of pleasure I regret
may be my treasure or the price I have to pay
she may be the song that Solomon sings
may be the chill that autumn brings
may be a hundred different things
within the measure of the day.
she may be the beauty or the beast
may be the famine or the feast
may turn each day into heaven or a hell
she may be the mirror of my dream
a smile reflected in a stream
she may not be what she may seem
inside as shell
she who always seems so happy ‘n proud
who’s eyes can be so private and so proud
no one’s allowed to see them when they cry
she may be the love that can and hope to last
may come to me from shadows of the past
that I remember till the day I die
she may be the reason I survive
the why and where for I’m alive
the one I’ll care for through the rough and rainy years
me I’ll take her laughter and her tears
and make them all my souvenirs
for where she goes I got to be
the meaning of my life is
现在的我其实超级难受，我刚刚讲了一个让我可能会好久都不会高兴起来的电话。在过去的一个小时里，我一直在用鼠标点BROKEN SELF的flash，其实完全在无意识的点击，很机械，就像妓女们很机械的和嫖客做着。今天发生的事情和之前的MSN Space里面的最后的一篇blog说的一样，矛盾最后还是产生了，有些事情是不能逃避的。有的时候只能面对，不管你赢了还是输了。我知道我这里写的特别的意识流，但是无所谓了，我看开了。Title says it all, “Why PZ9261.com?” Yes, why this domain? 呵呵，大学学号你们相信吗? 哎…… 我一点都不后悔自己最近做的任何事情，这个blog带给了我很多开心的回忆。这个blog也不会更名，相反，我会恢复到之前update的速度。曾经有人说过，Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. 我真的是 failed in life。就像我之前说的real life sucks… BIG TIME!!! Damnit!!! 本命年, I fucking hate 本命年now。[本文并非意识流，more like 神经有问题 sigh]
本来没什么感觉，但是昨天和好友晚饭后在新天地喝东西聊天的时候不经意的发现现在身边的人都在忙着相亲、订婚、结婚… 真的不知道现在的父母都在急什么… 当然这里面也不乏一些是交往了很久的，朋友们觉得他们也该结婚了 呵呵。不过现在的女孩子好现实啊，办公室里面的同事好多都在抱怨Stingy/Materialized Girls，其实现在在上海这个情况都已经成了很common的啦。去相亲的女孩子无非会问3个问题：有车吗? (有些会直接问，有BMW吗?) 有房子吗? 有贷款吗? 我这些好像都没有哎 呵呵。看来我是没希望了，一个可怜巴巴的月光族/张江男/aka 宅男… 不过还是要祝福那帮lucky的兄弟们，很快就要被束缚在‘结婚’的监狱里面了。lol… 刚刚我还在读 
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